leap of faith

I've been thinking a lot lately about what it actually takes to proceed with taking a "leap of faith."
When Des and I were visiting Susan and Dave, Susan was telling me about a recent sermon she'd heard. The pastor was talking about the time Jesus healed a man at the pool of Bethesda. One guy lying there with the other sick people who had gathered had been sick for thirty-eight years. So Jesus goes up to the guy and asks him, "Do you want to be healed?" Now, the pastor said he thought this question that Jesus had asked was very interesting. Jesus had this reputation of healing people, everyone knows that's Jesus' specialty. The guy is there with crowds of other sick people - blind, lame, paralyzed - of course he wants to be healed. Why else would he be there? For Jesus to ask the man if he WANTED to be healed meant the crippled man would have to make some drastic changes in his life. Now, he would probably have to get a job because he didn't have this disability anymore which would cause him to beg for money and food. No more handouts, no more pitty from the crowd of working class men, no more excuses.
So then we started talking about the things we use as "disabilities" for us not to do something. Lack of money, lack of education, lack of creativity, and the list goes on.
I think that God wants us to be "healed" of many different things in our lives. But do WE want to be healed of them. There are plenty of times my disabilities are what keep me from moving forward in many areas of my life. Do I really want to take a leap of faith? I know that God will push me over the edge the moment I admit to Him, "yes, Lord I'm ready to take that step." But am I prepared to accept what comes along with my leap?
I wonder.